Ace of Cups

As we approach the Solstice, and the Sun moves into Cancer, we are experiencing a whole new pace to our lives. Have you felt the fire and drive and desire to achieve, begin to calm? Begin to pull back into a more tender space of really seeing the beautiful nuances of this current moment? When we slow down our fire, slow down our minds, slow our bodies, feelings start to catch up. Sweetness and sorrow. Hunger and fulfillment. Doing and being. 

This is the time of the inner child, and we have so many inner children. We have the child that is filled with pure curiosity and imagination, the child that was told to hurry up and get ready, the child that felt separation from her mother, the child that just wanted them to stop yelling, the child that gave the flower to her mom to see her smile, the child that wanted her dad to chase her and scoop her up, they all are in there. They all want to be seen and hugged and heard. 

We all adult so well. We learned how to express our emotions in the way that made our parents feel the most comfortable. We learned what good little boys and girls do, and what worked to get attention if we could not measure up to their standards. Those children are in there. 

This week you are really feeling the voices of your inner children. They want to play. They want to sit on your lap and feel your arms around them, undistracted by your phones or your reading, or the worry that your adult inside has assigned to you. They want to run in the back yard naked, and smell flowers, and make glorious messes. And if you wont give them that freedom to be in this joyous state of love and spontaneous play, they will get your attention another way. 

The anger, tantrums, rages, sadness, laziness, and rebellion you may feel well up inside of you when you look at your world, those are inner children too. These children do not have their needs met. These children inside feel abandoned and like they have no control over their circumstances. They want more than anything, the love and protection of their parents, but at times, due to countless variables, were left to their own devices to work it out, and did not know how to cope. That pain is still there, ready to be triggered, felt, seen, loved, UNCONDITIONALLY. 

No parent gets it right all the time. And now you are a parent to yourself. You are the wild child within that feels authentically, and you are the parent who conditions yourself into maturity. 

In this time of Cancer, find a space for both of you to live joyously together. Honor yourself and every feeling. Remember that you are those children too. 

So much love to you, Sacred Family.

Christina Luna