Two of Cups
This week, the second week of a new emotional cycle, punctuated by a full moon and Mars retrograde, challenges us to bring the two of cups energy into our lives. I personally had difficulty siting down to write this one. Two of cups, traditionally, told a story of a man and a woman offering their cups of love to each other. This energy would indicate that two individuals would be sharing their hearts, sharing intimate space, moving toward celebration.
I have noticed that over the past 6 years, this specific week of the year has always been incredibly challenging for me, particularly because for the past 6 years, I have experienced conflict and temporary separation from my lover, like clockwork, around this week every year. This year, is different, not because I have mastered my circumstances by “playing the game” of astrology and tarot, but because I do have the ability to see a bit deeper into why this energy has been so polarized for me.
Do you recognize this pattern? We want and desire full presence, proximity, and love willingly given from a full cup. We want to feel the reciprocal, mutual extension of cups, and feel safe in this balance. We want this, but we sometimes harbor distrust and fear. So we hold ours back just a little to see if they will really give theirs. It is so subtle. It may just be a flinch, but that little pause is being observed by them too. And they want more than ever to extend the cup, but also have fear and distrust, they see our energetic flinch and you see theirs. And we feel so incredibly vulnerable that we withdraw completely. Safer to hold my own cup safe than to risk them taking it and not sharing theirs. This is super subconscious. Patterning built on every little heartbreak we have ever had.
What does it really mean to offer your cup to someone? Offer your love? Heart? No really. This is actually pretty abstract. There are actions you can take: You can say you love someone. You can do acts of kindness. You can give gifts. Carve out quality time. Touch them tenderly. All of these are really beautiful things to do for your lover, but these things are not love. They are merely languages of love.
While we meditate on this Two of Cups energy this week, look deeper than the language. Dive into your presence. On the surface we could say the cups are all about emotions and love, but digging a bit deeper its more about allowing your vessel, your cup, your BODY to be completely filled by your awareness, your presence. Bring your whole self into the moment and be with the people you love. Notice the emotions, or uncomfortable feelings (or sweet ones) you sense that would pull you back, make you flinch, withdraw your cup slightly.
The things we literally say are only a small percentage of what is heard. What is felt is far more important. What we truly feel is the message that is being conveyed. If our presence is pulled back by subconscious pain, our loved ones will feel the pain and the pull back. This triggers those feelings in them. You can imagine how this pattern continues.
Use this Mars Retrograde, full moon in Capricorn energy to SLOW DOWN. Put your feet into the earth and hold yourself in the moment. Instead of reacting and taking action from an unconscious pattern, use this time to let the flow of those watery feelings wash you as you stand firm in each moment. Like a stick in a river.
See if you can hold your presence and offer it, regardless of how the person in your presence is behaving. Be with your feelings. Feel them in the presence. Allow them to be seen. This is incredibly vulnerable, but this is what it is to offer your cup.
So much love to you, present lovers.
Christina Luna